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... the dimming of the light... (part 13) … the dimming of the light… (Part 13) Peter Hunter Day 13… … has dawned… dull, depressing and totally devoid of optimism… the low dark cloud layer not just caressing the tope of the downs - more a suffocating embrace - or should it be a stranglehold...

... the dimming of the light... (part 12) … the dimming of the light… (Part 12) Peter Hunter Day 11 … at last… … the Colonel had got his radio in working order late yesterday… and by some clever wiring had added a small twelve volt bulb to the electricity supply from the spare car battery. It...

... the dimming of the light... (part 11) … the dimming of the light… (Part 11) Peter Hunter Day 10 … but things were not all doom and gloom… … Despite the ill omens - the threatening gang of youngsters barring the council Chairman's attempt to ferry the dying old lady to the District Hospital...

... the dimming of the light... (part 10) … the dimming of the light… (Part 10) Peter Hunter Day 9 We had never seen the Colonel so excited… … he seemed ten years younger and his normal solemn face had the excited flush of a schoolboy… '… in the attic…' he almost was reduced to grasping as he...

... the dimming of the light... (part 9) … the dimming of the light… (Part 9) Peter Hunter Day 9 A new use of the wood burner has been mastered by the girls and it has improved the existence of us all - hot drinks and food now routine, the double-sized fourteen kilowatt unit belting out heat...

... the dimming of the light... (part 8) … the dimming of the light… (Part 8) Peter Hunter Day 6 … Happy Harry reprimanded me today… 'Is that tractor taxed and licensed…?' As if it mattered, or if indeed I cared… or was the misery's attempt at a joke or did he imagine he was still a sergeant...

... the dimming of the light... (part 7) … the dimming of the light… (Part 7) Peter Hunter Day 4 … dawn gently elbowed aside the night as it had always done and possibly always would although I pondered how long I would be around to see it… For the past day I had not felt so well. As I still...

... the dimming of the light... (part 6) … the dimming of the light… (Part 6) Peter Hunter Day 2 - continued … the sudden loud pulsing throb of a military helicopter about a thousand feet above our heads shattered the threatening silence of a day continuing without electricity. At least the...

... the dimming of the light... (part 5) … the dimming of the light… (Part 5) Peter Hunter Day 2 … cold, very cold the contents of the wood burner are still warm… a diminishing pile of grey embers which Alice rapidly encourages to a healthy heap of flaming logs… … but still no electricity - no...

... the dimming of the light... (part 4) … the dimming of the light… (Part 4) Peter Hunter Night 1 Unsurprisingly I could not sleep… … perhaps not even want to having spent the long dark evening talking to Chris, Sharon and the Colonel in front of the log burner - Alice and I had retired to a...

... the dimming of the light... (part 3) … the dimming of the light… (Part 3) Peter Hunter Day 1 continued… … 1200 noon… '… and then?' asked Sharon… Three thirty and the daylight was already fading - but the friendly flicker from the wood burner gave light as well as warmth. 'We stick...

... the dimming of the light... (part 2) … the dimming of the light… (Part 2) Peter Hunter Day 1 - 1200 noon… … we sat huddled in our parked car outside our house, dressed in several layers of clothes in defiance of the January cold. Only the radio was operating silently as we waited for the...

... the dimming of the light... … the dimming of the light… (Part 1) Peter Hunter … the night felt wrong …a least it seemed that way. The light patter of rain on the roof, the horse-like neighing call of some dabchicks on the lake answered by the sharper more aggressive shriek of a pair of...

Billy's Suicide Billy's Last Hours One voice. DO IT! DO IT! Over and over I hear it in my head. DO IT! DO IT! The 6 rolls in, prefect for the 7. DO IT! DO IT! 7 rolls in, 8 and 9 side by side looking like a pair of eyes. I picture the face, demented, bloody, constantly saying. DO IT! DO IT! Out...

with out a whisper 2 long ago you left with out a whisper you left with out saying a word, you always said you were alright, but you weren't and everyone was to foolish and blind to see that you were hiding behind a mask of happiness, but then you took off your mask for your friends and you...

Meet me there (chapter one?) Imagine this. A sunny little meadow, tucked behind some majestically tall oak trees, hidden from the outside world. The hum of nearby traffic comes to a stop when you enter the meadow. Breathe in the air, its cleaner. Pure, cleaner oxygen. The grass below your feet...

Vita Dei Demoni When the demons call my name I am not ashamed To answer with a cry We all deserve to die Tonight the freaks come out to play blades and blood theresnothing2Say We'll end up screaming Hoping we're just dreaming Please help me to know Who I Am so low Let me disappear Hush...

Love Hurts Have you ever thought someone cared about you ,but they just end up hurting you ? Love hurts and so does getting stabbed in the back. People think hurting other people is fun and that nothing will happen because of their actions. Words hurt and no matter how many times you apologies...

a life of pain I never thought life could get any worse after my whole family died two years ago. CHAPTER ONE: THREE YEARS AGO Three years ago life was starting to change for me. first was the death of my mom she smoked,was an *******ic, and lost custody of me and my seventeen year old brother...

Stop It!!! She hits her everyday. And her brother just watches feeling so useless. She always hits her no matter what her reason she only hits her. He has to watch her get hit it isn't right. He always says very quietly please stop mommy. And he helps his sister up and wipes away the tears and...

Loved You To Late . He had sat by her for days, for weeks, for months. He had sat by her all year, she'd never missed a day. Now she was gone, and she wouldn't be back. "killed herself, so young..." the words echoed repeatedly in his head. He slumped onto his desk and stared at hers. For just...

Misery I feel like cutting, Feeling the blood run, Leaving a trail of pain with it, shutting. Like shotting myself with a gun…. If life feels so worthless Then why do I sing? All these versus, I don’t think ill make it to sping When all the pain, Kills me When all it is vain. All I want to be...

Please read I have not personally been through this but many other people i know have so please read I was just sat there in my lesson waiting for the bell to go, as i just kept staring at the clock wishing it could just move five minutes at a time but little did i know my mum had just pulled...

A cold day in hill “Why” “What why” “i hate it when you repeat things i say” “i am not, I am just not in the mood of speaking, so i just want you to say what do you want” “we need to talk” “not now” “you’re sitting doing nothing” “ya” “i need you to make things clear for me” “ya” “i...

Angel A women was driving and didn't stop because the light was green.her granpa yelled,"Stop!"as quick as possible,she stoped.A huge truck pasted as fast as anything she had seen,if she would'nt had stoped,she could of been crushed.She stoped at a gas place and cried.Wanna know way?Her granpa...

Bus Stop "Ava are you ready?" "Yes mommy.". Hi! I'm Ashley White. I am a stay at home mom.I am 34 and am married to Logan White. Logan is 35.Logan is a doctor. I have 2 daughters. Ava and Mindy. Ava is now 14. Mindy is 13. I will share the story of Ava Lilly White. One word for Ava. One word to...

Continued... 2 corpses lay on top of one another; the lower corpses shifted the one on top. The lower figure grunted as he placed tossed the other on the floor. The top corpse was of female, it was disfigured, scorched and charred like a burning charcoal oven. The lower figure was lucky; he had...

Blood Brother Bloodbrothers Farmer Fred was the son of a father whom had 2 wives during the cold war era. Now from the technologies of the cold war from radios to now-a-days cell phones, he became accustomed to receiving text messages. He had just received 2 text messages from his best pen pal...

What a waste Sometimes I feel like I am wasting my life. It's an excuse really but maybe it has something to do with the fact that I'm not normal. I find concentration difficult. I find focusing on one thing impossible. I love to leave things till the last minute, to go through the fast paced...

Conflicted thoughts Ever had that thought where you feel envious of your own friend? I'm happy for her but I can't help feel a little bad because her life is going great. Mine is too to an extend. Today I realized I don't like him anymore. Someone I thought I loved is no more. My best friend we...

The Person Who Hides I'm the type of person that doesn't show my feelings. I'm the type of person that is afraid to show people who I really am. I'm the type of person who takes things to the heart. So when someone says something about me, thats hurtful. I believe them. I'm the type of...

mama in a house thier was a son a daughter and a mother but no father, the father had died during a tradgic car accident so, now it has been only 4months since dad had died and the whole family has been grieving over that death now suddenly the mother is becoming ill and, the son went to the...

The day my sister died Me and my twin sister were in the woods It was our birthday And then it started raining We both heard a sound And turned around 2 boys were chasing us we tried to run as fast as we could My twin sister wasn't fast enough The boys caught up to her And they done sinful...

I Love You Sara grasped the sopping wet doll with her muddy fists as she sat curled up in a ball as her drunk mother beat her with rage.'Stop it !' screamed Sara,as her mother continued her unwanted beating.'Why should I?!' her mother replied.Sara was only in fifth grade,and she received abuse...

Happiness A little girl sits beside her mom in a hospital bed. The little girl wonders why there are so many tubes stuck inside her. In her arms, her chest, and even up her nose. Everyday her mother holds her telling her everything will be ok. Smiling the little girl looks up, tears roll down...

To you, if you read this... You are not really present, although physically present. Your ears do not decipher that code of nonsensical chatter: the laughs, and tears; the dynamics in the jumbled world of octaves that raise from high to low and low to high - carcophony to your ears. You are...

My Suicidial Letter I got a call from my friend Moon, he said he was depressed and needed some comfort. I calmly said to him I would be in few seconds at his house and I said to him also that he should try to calm himself down while I got there. I got ready and I was on my way to his house. On...

Final Words I took my place on the stage, staring out at the crowd. Fear filled my lungs, like water, and I felt like drowning. I grabbed the microphone, clearing my throat. This was it. My one chance. If I couldn't do it now, I couldn't do it. Ever. I saw a blonde-haired boy look at me and...

How Could You? "When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -...

My best friend Ok so My best friend Katie had fallen in love in this idiot of a boy friend he acctuly was pretty mean to me however she did not notice it at all she could stare on him for hours without moveing it felt like anyways. And who was i to think badly about her bf i never said a word...

The Demons Whisper Like every morning when she awakes to an empty home she feels alone and as if the world has somehow forgotten that she too is human. That life has denied her a sliver of happiness. She has spent years convincing herself that she is better off alone where no one can hurt her...

Daddy!!! Elizabeth was downstairs watching the news well her mom was upstairs. Elizabeth's dad was going bowling. All of a sudden on the TV a news alert popped up. The reporter said "We have now been notified that a man named Nathan Pope was just in a car accident. He was hit by a drunk driver...

Prisinor Of A Deadly Game His deep brown eyes were frozen over His pale freakled skin was cold Rope burns glowed red on his neck A tear spilled out of his lifeless eye As I watched him lay there, Dead on the warm carpet floor I felt a wave of sarrow and agony wash over me "Why had he done...

a proud mom It was Sep. 17, 2007. Her youngest daughter, Amor was about to face one of her most daring challenge. Amor was a candidate for Miss SBC ( Southern Baptist College 2007). Amor has been fully supported by her older sister Shen. Shen has been there for her all through the competition...

Suicide note suicide note Sorry I wasn’t perfect Child, wife, mother I wanted me to be As I prepare myself I thought about all The time I herd myself say “I could do better” I thought I was doing my best To live, to love Like all the rest As I slit my wrist I say good bye Sorry I wasn’t...

Everything When I was younger, I remember saying, "I'd give EVERYTHING for that bike!" Just because I saw a flashy add. Or I remember saying, "I'd pay ANYTHING to have seven minutes with her!" In middle school because Sheila was the hottest girl in school. Many times I would come home crying...

Eye Wall Exactly 38 sheets of paper were scattered to my left. A quarter filled jug of water, kept just three steps away from me on the table. The remote for the television was buried under the sofa cushion with three pairs of unwashed socks next to it. The room was exact mess. Nothing was where...

Just A Dream I don't think many people liked me. They knew I existed but no one really cared. I'd stand and try to blend in with the corners of the sports hall during practices. All kinds of practices. And no one would try to talk to me. Except my cousins or the coach. My sister hated me. And I...

Why is there a sky? “Have you ever wondered why there’s a sky Kristy?” “no I haven’t. Then… Ryan why is there a sky?” “I don’t know but if I ever find the answer I’ll tell you” That happened years ago. Me and Ryan were best friends. He always had my back I always had his. We were...

DEPRESSION Maybe if my leg was broken or I was diagnosed with a life threatening illness they would have cared more. It seems that mental illness does not have a place in this world. There are already too many 'freaks' suffering from it, one in five australians in fact. Sure the physical...